I feel like I should post a live blog. It would look something like this:
7:50am--Walked the boys to school. Declan is loving school and skipped ahead with a friend. Finn walked next to me dragging his Finn and lamenting how much he hates school.
7:55am--We discuss the merits of going to the toy store right after school--IMMEDIATELY after school--to get Pokemon cards and Finn rallies a little.
8:00am--He walks into school. Tears are there, but they are not falling. A step in the right direction. I hear a hysterical, "BYE, MOM!" as he disappears into the building. He is "armed" with a kissing hand in one pocket, a picture of all of us in the other. Baboo and his favorite train are in his backpack. In his lunch I put a special note and another picture of us.
8:05am--I wait outside for a few minutes until I'm sure he's in his classroom and won't see me. Then I head to the library because I help shelve books on Wednesday morning.
8:20am--I peer out to make sure Finn won't see when I get ready to leave. Instead, I see Declan who waves excitedly and then goes into the computer lab, happy as a clam.
8:25am--I'm leaving, but I can't resist. I ask one of the aides to go to Finn's class and see what's what. She readily agrees--she's cool like that.
8:27am--She returns and lets me know that the class is having circle time. Finn is in the circle and is raising his hand. No sign of tears.
8:30am--I return home. I pace around. I wash the breakfast dishes--practically a first this week that it hasn't had to wait until the end of the day because of all of the craziness around here. I still feel restless. I can't work. I surf the Internet and finally do some exercise. My work deadlines are looming. And yet, I do nothing.
In 7 minutes, Finn will in the lunchroom. I have several loving teachers and aides lined up on "Finn duty" so that we can see how he will do. I feel anxious for Finn because of the stress he may be feeling. I feel anxious for me because if this doesn't work, I know I will be embarking on a course of action that the school does not support or approve of and I may potentially be damaging my relationship with them. I am anxious, but I know I will do it. That makes me more anxious. I hate anxiety.
I'll let you know what happens. Hopefully I won't be blogging right after school and instead I'll be at the toy store.
On another note, please pray for our dear friends the Escoes--Kristie, Blaine, Brayden, Kellen and Kendrie. Read Kristie's latest post for more information.